Money alone sets all the world in motion.

i am so confused. like, i don't understand money. i was only saying to the girls today in the car, why cant things just be free. like why cant we go shopping and maybe just be limited to maybe 2 bottles of soft drinks. you know? maybe a big multi pack of crisps, some ham, cheese, maybe 3 litres of milk and 2 pans of bread. maybe one white one brown. some teabags, butter, jam, coffee, corn flakes. like we wouldn't loot the shops, just take our rations and be gone. same with clothes, we could pick out our favourite pieces. maybe like 10 a month. and then toiletries. maybe some soap, deodorant, painkillers, tampons, a 30ml bottle of perfume every 3 months. stationary: some note pads, pens, pencils, paint, sketch books, folders, plastic pockets, glue, glitter, scissors, a craft knife. obviously if everything was free people wouldn't really have to work, there could just be security guards making sure people took only their specified amount. and then college fees. teachers would just love what they do and get joy out of helping people learn. so everything would just be as normal but money didnt exist. i wonder what the world would be like. there would be no debt or repayments, mortgages or bills. people wouldn't have to worry, only about personal matters. which are what matter most.
this post is very much aimed at and related to my recent problems. i'm having a bad day. could you tell?
i have a job, which i am so happy about, and grateful for, but there is an issue. i don't start until december 12th. which is so far away. i thought i would have received my first pay date and everything by this time. i wont. i wont get a cent until january, at least. i have so many things i need to pay for before this month. i have insurance for december and january, i have car tax, i have a 25euro a week loan to pay off, the one that i took out for a well deserved holiday to florida in june. i have to feed myself, run my car, buy my materials for college, and live.
i cannot depend on my mam for much of this, she helps me out so much already, but she doesn't earn much. my dad does, he doesnt usually leave me short, but as of late he has. for a reason i shouldn't have to write about. i never expected myself to be in this situation. a small family, in a nice house, with a dog. regular (ish) family gatherings, holidays, etc. but not alot of communication, apparently. i'm not sorry for growing up. this is life. i never would have been a baby forever. well, i'm still your baby but i'm a big girl now. this should not have pushed you away or made you stray. i dont know for sure if it is partially the reason or if you just could not take anymore of each other.
this is starting to get personal. it's been a long weekend, goodnight.