HELL FIRE CLUB.

so hi, it's been a couple of days. some stuff has happened. i got accepted to college doing what i initially wanted to do after i was cruelly REJECTED from íde. super happy, start properly tomorrow. fashion styling in crumlin college. this is what i need now, to concentrate on, something awesome and creative. i'm excited.
i'm supposed to go for an interview in Urban Outfitters tomorrow also, which i don't think i'm gonna make. which kills me. which I would have killed FOR only a few days previous. i don't know what to do!
myself, sean, sean o'brien and heather went up the mountains yesterday to the hell fire club. it was awesome i used sean's film camera and took some pictures. i dunno how they're going to turn out but if they're any use i'll put them up when he gets them developed.

i'm not sure what else to write about my head is melted.

I bailed on Kelly.

devastated. i heard she was on the late late show. and that she was gorgeous. and so polite. anyway i'll get her book some day soon and read it probably within a couple of days.

i went to sean's friend dan's 21st party on friday night, it was fancy dress and i had to get a costume ON friday, talk about last minute. i ended up getting a fire woman's one in a hardware shop. when i got back to get changed it ended up being for a 4-6 year old boy, little pants and a fireman jacket. so i got a sailor lady one instead and sean's sister did my make up for me. i kind of looked like a drag queen. but it was ok. there was a guy at the party with the same costume, how embarrassing. we were the only two people in the same one. he showed more skin so i guess that means he won.
sean went as a policeman i kinda wish we got pictures... :(

nothing more.

VUZE.

i'm going to town tomorrow to leave some c.v's around, do some charity shopping and hopefully buy a copy of kelly osbourne's new book. i hear she's signing in eason's on o'connell street at 5pm so maybe i'll swing by... i have to say i am a big fan. so i'm pretty excited.

my vuze works again, ♥
it's about time i can download she & him volume one.

nothing else to report. oiche maith.

Sweet Disposition.

(500) Days Of Summer. "Next time you look back, you should look again."

when i saw the trailers i initially thought the movie would be about 500 days of a relationship, 500 days that were like every day of summer, sunny and warm. bright and happy. little did i know, the girls name is actually summer and it was about the 500 days (hanson) spent with her. and the deterioration of the relationship over the days.
it didn't make the film any less good. the direction of it was fairly genius. we'll say it went from day 42 to day 116 and showed how much the relationship was changing in such a short space of time.
funnily enough, summer is the one who from the start told him she wasn't looking for anything serious and didn't want to put a label on what they had. all she knew was she was happy, and so was he. it seemed as if summer had the mentality of a boy, and hanson a girl. she hadn't believed in love, and said it was just fantasy, where as he was someone who wanted to find 'the one' and DID believe in love, and soulmates. their paths cross anyway and there's a twist, that i suppose is expected... as the movie goes on.
it's a really sweet film. it's something that everyone can relate to; love. you can see how it brings out the best, and the worst in a person. it's very real.
i love Zooey DesChanel. i love her approach to acting. she is not superficial, but beautiful with a lovely smile. thumbs up to Joseph Gordon-Levitt, also.


so, i get paid tomorrow. i've been sick the past week or so with a sore throat and a snotty nose. a flu, pretty much.
i'm hoping to hear from another college tomorrow or tuesday. i'm hoping to get my hair done. and i'm hoping to find a new job.
i cant post this video because embedding is disabled by request, LAME.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFuYmMVtcLA
but it is such a lovely song.

the weather is going downhill and it's dark by half 8.

Basically...

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Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.

i sure hope you are right, Henry Ward Beecher. i am devastated. turns out that everyone showed up for registration yesterday and i am, not surprisingly, left unbelievably disappointed. again. i know it is not the end of the world, but when will it be my turn to be so happy at how well things are going for me. foolishly enough of me, i half expected to be accepted. i should have known better.
anyway, i have a list of places to call tomorrow to see if there are any places left in any of the courses they have that interest me. i feel as though i have to do something this year, apart from work. i cannot work again for another year, waste more money and more time. my brain will rot if i don't start using it properly. i keep saying i'm only a baby, but the truth is i am in the last of my teenage years. i am growing up. that excuse can't be used anymore. scarily enough.



we passed through phibsborough today and i noticed a bitchin' looking charity shop "aware" in the village. the AMOUNT of stuff on the rails was insane. can't wait to have a look around there as soon as i have some money to spend. i want to get a pair of ankle boots too. for the autumn/winter, which has pretty much hit us like a WWF champion. either black or tan, or grey even. maybe i'll come accross a nice cosy pair. and a (faux) FUR JACKET. for the third year in the row. FUCK. it doesn't really have to be vintage but i'd prefer a cheap one as opposed to one for €94 euro in River Island. camden let me down last year, not one without a hole in it. sigh.

i'm publishing this post now because i've no more to say. i know i mentioned that i wouldn't speak of any of my problems, but it's all i'm faced with these past few weeks.
night night, x

Beauty is about perception, not about make-up. I think the beginning of all beauty is knowing and liking oneself.

You can't put on make-up, or dress yourself, or do you hair with any sort of fun or joy if you're doing it from a position of correction.



i read my star sign today while i was eating my bowl of honey loops. i have never read a star sign that seemed so suited to my situation.
"You've been seduced by numerous intriguing ideas and opportunities. Yet things either fall through or aren't what they initially seemed. This is no surprise, since the circumstances you are dealing with are temporary."
i don't usually believe them, cause they're mostly bullshit. but this one in particular sounded frighteningly familiar. who knows whether or not there is truth in it. hopefully not. then maybe things will go my way. for a change.

i'm due to be paid on monday. there are some things i need to get:
car insurance; 3 months car tax; new window wipers; pay €30 worth of motorway toll fares; new "furniture" for my turtle.
this will act as a reminder.