BINGO

not just for christmas, forever.

"After all, you cant truly be happy if you've never known pain. You cant truly feel joy if you've never felt heartbreak. You cant really know what it's like to be filled unless you've been empty"

i watched the dreamers tonight

i happen to think

it means more to you than you know.

today is friday.

i managed to come across a girl on lower abbey street wearing a pair of vivienne westwood ankle wellies. she was smoking. i wanted to mob her of life, and the wellies. they were beige with black bows. why would anyone on abbey street be wearing these beauties. i just could not understand. i still cant.

i haven't worn perfume in days

i keep thinking you'll show up at my door and surprise me. my mind is playing tricks and i can hear your car outside.
i've been dreaming of us having so much fun together, just like we used to. laughing and kissing in the grass.
it's so hard to not hear your voice everyday, and i miss you terribly.
i love you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HThCnCjikQ

Please don't say we're done
When I'm not finished
I could give you so much more
Make you feel, like never before
Welcome, they said welcome to the floor

It's been a while
And you've found someone better
But I've been waiting too long to give this up
The more I see, I understand
But sometimes, I still need you

Sometimes, I still need you

I was struggling to get in
Left waiting outside your door
I was sure
You'd give me more

No need to come to me
When I can make it all the way to you
You made it clear
You weren't near
Near enough for me

Heart skipped a beat
And when I caught it you were out of reach
But I'm sure, I'm sure
You've heard it before

Well... they should?

When was the last time I posted? Seriously? April 1st feels like so long ago. Alot has happened that I can't begin to explain because it wouldn't make sense to me, it would hurt if I did. I don't want to hurt, not right now. I want to get on with whatever is happening, and I want things to progress and get so much better. I think they will. I've been told I should be so positive during this time, and I agree completely. But I can't help being scared. It would be heartless to not be scared. Or just plain strange. I have also been told I should see someone, an 'expert'. Why would I speak to a stranger about what I'm feeling when I can barely speak to the people I love? I don't know what is right anymore.
My friends who I wouldn't have seen alot of before, have completely stepped up to their roles and I am so grateful for that. Others have drifted, which has astounded me completely, considering they were the ones who said they would be there, as I have been for them. It's so funny because my everyday acquaintances know nothing of this blog, and would more than likely never read it. You all know who you are, I'm sure.

I wore sandals today...

I have also been listening to Kelis and The XX alot. One which is upbeat and uplifting, and another which is one of the most upsetting/amazing albums I have ever heard. I'm happy they've been the soundtrack to the hard times I've been having so far. I've had a bit to drink so I should finish up.

Out x

Everyone feels like this sometimes, don't they?

Lara Bone

can i just say, david walliams is a lucky bloke. look at the kajunga's on lara stone in april vogue...? i can't even say any more they are just absolutely exceptional. serious 'girl crush', as much as i hate that expression.
styled by Kate Phelan


i love her hair slicked back like this with the scuba wet look going on, it's amazing but i cant imagine joe soap pulling it off. she's wearing a julien macdonald swimsuit with a mesh neckline that costs approx. £320, unsure of what it would be in euros. LOOK at them bleached eyebrows. oh my god.



the laddered knit mini is mark fast (£783). in fairness i could probably make one myself with my eyes closed. also mad about the nike hi-tops (£65). the fact that her fingernails are clean makes me like this picture 100% more than i do already.

yummy.

so here are some shots from my 'futurvision' project. i'm pretty happy with how they turned out, for the limitations and facilities that we had to work around. it's pathetic that we only had 15 minutes each and for the record, i probably wouldn't bother using these for a book. i guess it's all practice. none of these have been edited they're literally straight from the cd. photography by paul sherwood, model is my friend cara. she done her own make up, she's a mac girl.

FUTUREVISION

i had alot of shit written here and my internet crashed and blogger never saved it as a draft. f*ck you, blogger. also fu*k you, firefox. so i'm not typing it up again as i have essays and reports to write up.
so i'll just post the pictures and maybe another day when i feel better i'll post more about it. getting the pictures from the actual shoot back at the end of the month and it can't come quick enough.
PS: my friend cara modeled for me which was awesome because she is super pretty. she done her make up herself. she works in mac. and is very important there. enough said.

a win / lose situation.

so i was having a browse on this infectious thing called the internet, doing some ''research'' for college and gracing www.style.com with my presence, when i came across some designers that i had never actually bothered to look at properly before. i have fallen in love with one, in particular. and another, who i would be very familiar with, has made me actually want to die.
so i'll harp on about the good stuff first. i was looking through moschino cheap & chic, and between the eye catching heart-shaped bubblegum pink back drop on the catwalk, the optimistic colour popping prints, and the statement accessories, i just couldn't get enough. 35 looks just didn't do it for me, i wanted more. and still do. taking inspiration from the sixties, there are lots of ruffles, there are patchworks, bloomers, thigh high dresses, ankle grazing dresses, crisp white blouses, A-line double breasted jackets, and a quirky take on men's formal wear. shoes were accompanied by laces of what i made out to be satin ribbons, tied into lovely on-trend bows. correct me if i am wrong.
as far as hair and make up goes, there were fresh faces, pink lips and cheeks, and pony tails. simplicity, which was refreshing. full of wit and charm. all in all, very girly and cheeky, or should i say ''chic-y'', haha. no.

anyway i was going to pick just 4 favourite looks, but if 35 wasnt enough... so i've picked 8. and here they are...



so there you have it. if i had to choose, it would be the white dress, 2nd from the right in the top 4. i just realized how small those images are, apoligies. amazing work, Rossella Jardini. keep it up.

now onto a not so flattering collection... i've just looked at it a second time, and decided that some pieces are wear-able, but is he actually taking the piss out of the boys? again, we see lots of bright colours, denim, lace, and leather, but for the boys too...? yeah, lace... i just don't know, if someone can help me out, please do. because i'm struggling with this one.


i'm all for edgy and quirky fashion, but since when are men ALLOWED to wear lace tshirts? these poor guys look proper humiliated. i'm not a fan of the ill-fitting trousers above, either. i just don't know what to say, henry.
as for the ladies, i picked 3 things that i would wear out of this collection. a sleeveless shirt dress, a denim two piece, and an over sized/ off the shoulder jumper. you would see these for sure on the high street, i'm not just being nonchalant, because i have enjoyed other collections of his, but i can't appreciate the majority of this one.


tangerine lace, wet-look tshirts, half denim/ half lace dresses. speechless.


bitch, out.

Go get your shovel, and we'll dig a deep hole.

so I'm back, maybe. college has slapped me in the face since i've been back, many times. i've had to organize work experience, and start some serious brainstorming for the next shoot which is on the 8th of feb, which gives us an extra week, which is cool.
the theme this time is ''future vision'', and abstract aspects from mechanical objects. we've to make an accessory, a garment, and a bag. my imagination is working, thats for sure.
for my accessory, i'm planning on making some sort of hood, maybe a draped jersey kind of thing, because i already tried another stiff-ish type of fabric and it didn't work out so well. either a hood, a collar, or a shin or arm guard. why do i need a shin or arm guard? i don't know. only the future can figure that out.
my garment will be something for the bottom half this time, as for printed textiles we have to feature a print (clearly, this time with lino as opposed to a stencil) on a tshirt/dress/top of our choice. i semi cheated and bought a tacky number in that shop 'catch' just off liffey street. does anyone know it? yeah. there.
the idea of the bag is to revolve around ''iNess'' like iPods, iTunes... basically my tutor thinks that iAnything relates to the future, which, fair enough, it may. she has some of the wildest ideas ever. i appreciate her, alot. but anyway the bag has to be made from a paper bag. or a card bag. and we've to combine materials and come up with another way for the bag to be worn in everyday life. so my plan is to put it on wheels and attach a lead to it, as though it were a pet. i'm quite happy with this idea, i just hope i can find a 4-pack of wheels.

VIKTOR & ROLF SS 2010
i'm so fucking impressed with this collection, i just can't even understand it. well, i can but it's quite mind blowing. the pastel colours in general this season are so pretty i can't explain how into them i am. they remind me of those flying saucers you used to eat when you were a kid? the choice of music for the catwalk fits the show perfectly, too. roisin murphy, who has been growing on me alot lately, performed live at the show at Paris Fashion Week, even sporting a some V&R on herself.






in love with those shin pieces. what do you even call them. delicious, i'm thinking.
anyway, my laptop battery is at 7% and i'm super tired from experimenting with my making of hoods and sewing in general. i deserve some winks. i'll leave you all with this ''unofficial'' video for a tune by roisin herself, orally fixated... happy blogging.



eat me,
AX.

Happy New Year

i was going to post something but i am not in the humor of writing anything.